What is Reality?

As per our agreement, here I am again! Writing about the nothings that take up my life and fill it with joy and sadness. So since I was here, not a whole lot of new has par-took in my day to days, but I did see Inception this afternoon. And I must say, I was completely blown away by the syntax of the story. The characters were well written and while I generally do not appreciate Leonardo DiCaprio's work, this was probably the best thing I've seen from him. However, I was feeling a little Matrix-y while in the theater (you know the whole reality isn't reality issue has been done, just not directly in this manner). Also, I've signed up to have some headshots taken, you know in case I ever decide to become a movie star. Since I'm in Louisiana, and they do film quite a few movies down here (if for nothing other than the tax break the state gives them -- and they wonder why the state has no $$$), I figured that I should try to be in a movie. That would knock at least one thing off my bucket list. It could also lead to more movie roles and then eventually turn into a full fledged superstar status, but that's only a dream (or is it?!?!)

Another fun thing to look forward to this week is the taking of the MCAT or med school admissions test - it's definitely freaking me out! I have this inundated fear sweeping over me and can't help but allow thoughts of negativity creep into my mind. I have many people telling me that I can do well, that I can score high enough to get into medical school, but I'm still not sure. I have a feeling somewhere deep down that I'm going to walk into the testing center and forget just about everything that I know about biology, chemistry, english, etc. and have to fend for myself without the hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of education I've paid for. Maybe for now I should hold on to the movie star idea and not hold my breath on the med school thing (or vice versa!) That's all for now... Love ya mean it, BYE!

The Tides that Bind

Wow, it's been a super long time since I've been here. And not because i've been too busy or anything, but because I forgot about Blogging! I'm a stranger to the "vent to the world" mentatlity! Trying to be better though! So... here goes! Since I last updated, I've done many a thing. Specifically, graduating from USF (University of South FL) with a Master's Degree in Medical Sciences with a concentration in Anatomy and up and moved to Shreveport, LA to be an instructor in the cellular biology and anatomy department. Basically what I do is work with the first year medical students on cadaver dissections; however, it seems that I am also a janitor since I'm told to refill papertowel dispensors, soap dispensors, sweep the floors, take out the trash, etc. I don't know how I got roped into that, but oh well! I like the job. I've been here about seven months and am starting to wonder if this was the right choice. I have decided to try applying to the medical school that I work for and see if I can get in (but unless God decides to come down and help me take the MCAT, I don't think i'll get in!). I really need something other than this. They are giving me some lectures in the fall, which should abide me for now, but I know that the itch will come back. I want to go, see, be somewhere else. Namely California, even now as I attempt to get into medical school am I looking at programs for residency out there. I want to be there, I should be there. I am not someone who is supposed to live and stay in the same place for years and years. The time has come for me to actually go and do some "work", but I promise to come back soon and write again! <3>